Today I'm..... Happy :D

Yesterday I tried to wrote something, but I wasn't in the MOOD jajajajajajajaja..... I don't know why really, cause I enjoy writing...... But here's the thing, maybe yesterday wasn't a good day and today is. I'm getting ready to attend a birthday party, and I was thinking about a lot of things that I've learned the past couple of weeks.

I'm begging to know me, and I'm enjoying every minute of it, I know it sounds crazy.... but I feel that way; and now I know it's OK to have problems, it's OK to cry, it's OK to demonstrate your feelings..... after all, that's the way I AM. And it's OK to fall in love, but it's NOT OK to have feelings for a person who is NOT HERE. I'm really trying to leave him behind, I've been reading a book, that's really helping me to deal with certain situations.... and I've learned that sometimes things you're waiting to happen.... doesn't come because you're STILL LOOKING BACK.

And I've realized that if I want NEW THINGS to come.... I have to let go of the OLD THINGS... and it's hard... and it hurts, but that's the right choice to make. And in order to become who I am supposed to be... I have to leave some things behind. So, I want to leave him behind, and I know I've tried a lot of times, but I've learned that letting go.... is not a thing you do once..... It's a thing you do over and over again, until you don't remember it was there.......